New kid on the block

while having prayer with my sisters tonight we talked about being the new kid on the block how awkward that can be. having relocated to both coast in my adult life i know a thing or two about being the new kid. it definitely sucks. but to my surprise my sisters thought i was well suited for it because i have no problem making friends. as one joked, "you just walk up to people and say hi i'm soandso, do you want to be my friend?"

that made me laugh. it's not quite that simple. lol. but honestly making friends is never hard for me. i'm not super charasmatic or anything but over the last few years i've discovered that more often than not, people are drawn to me. i've come to learn that i have high vibrations and radiance. it's not always but when i'm doing the things necessary to care for myself - alone time, meditation, pampering, reading, connecting with nature, learning, etc. - i give off something that draws people to me.

i'm not a perfect woman, sometimes i'm moody and emotional and i've been known to be rude on occassion, but it is my sincere desire to be the hands, feet and heart of god extended in this earth. i want to touch people with his love. i want to demonstrate his compassion and grace and mercy. those things aren't easy. they were completely revolutionary when jesus taught them. love your enemies? care for the poor and windows and aliens? talk to the strangers and the dirty and broken? you know what that means? you have to understand what it's like to be the new kid on the block. you have to understand what it's like to be marginalized by society. you have to understand what it's like to be on the outside looking in.

people are quick to tell you things happen for a reason. yes they do. they happen because we speak them into existence or someone else spoke them into existense. there is no such thing has happenstance. it's fine if you disagree. we won't fall out over it. but it is 100% true that life and death are in the power of the tongue and what we speak, we give life to. i told god i want to represent him and by golly he continues to provide opportunities for me to touch his people. most of the time, i don't have to go out of my way to do it. they come to me. they collide with me.

i think i'm making a new mantra. everyday i want to collide with god's abundant life, blessings, healing and love and i want to share out of the overflow. that's what self care is all about. it's filling up your cup so when it starts overflowing you are able to give out of the abundance. i want to live in that space everyday. i want to collide with that kind of godness!