oh january, what do you have in store?

some days if i'm not careful, i can go the entire day in silence. well, not really silence because i'm always talking to myself. but i can go an entire day without talking to anyone else. usually when i see those days forming, i try to talk on the phone. but today i just wanted to rest and relax.

i slept a lot. partly because i stayed up all night finishing my book. partly because i didn't have anything to do today and didn't feel like getting up. and then i went out for a bit to run errands, so i talked to the cashiers of course, and came back home. i cooked some bomb gumbo and then took a nap. now it's 8:30 and i need to start getting ready for work. i plan to be in bed by 10:30. i'm still kind of tired. that's what vacation does to me.

i'm also slightly sad. not deep sadness, just a little sad about something that happened yesterday. i'll get over it. just takes me a few days sometimes. the year has started off fairly decent in that nothing has gone wrong. nothing terribly exciting has happened by that's actually normal. lol. glad this is a short work week because those four days will no doubt feel like 10! and i still haven't done anything to my hair so i need to figure out what i'm going to do with it for tomorrow. it rained today. it's not super straight but it's definitely still straight. guess another braid out is in order.

oh january, what do you have in store for me? 2012, what do you have in store for me? i've thought about this year in passing but i confess to not giving it my full attention. haven't vision boarded. haven't written my 3 to try 3 to learn lists. haven't fully dreamed about what i want to see manifest in my life this year. i know the basics. i won't speak them now because i feel like i say them enough. but i do long for that area to be addressed. i also continue to pray for strength to release the things i need to release. no one likes a bag lady. think i might find a counselor to work out some of these strongholds. just need to talk through some things without judgement so i can figure out what is the best thing for me. everyone thinks they know but really they don't. we don't know what's best for each other unless we've been given a word from god. i'm very mindful of that.