dream on purpose

have you ever found yourself staring off into space lost in a daydream? i have to admit i am guilty more than the average bear. i daydream a lot. sometimes it's me projecting my expected outcomes for decisions i have to make. sometimes it's me working out story details for character development. sometimes it's allowing my dreams about my future to play out uninhibited. and sometimes it's pure fantasy and escapism with no real purpose except to take a break from all the other things going on in my life. i love to daydream.

but i was listening to joyce meyers' podcast today at work and she mentioned the need to dream on purpose. it got me thinking that maybe i'm feeling stuck in life because i haven't spent enough time dreaming. i can tell you exactly what kind of wife and mother i want to be because i dream about it all the time. i know i want to to be a best selling author because i dream about the book tour all the time. those are two roles that occupy much of my thought time and that leads me to one of two conclusions. either i'm obsessed with them, or they are the two passions of my life and i need to be working to bring those dreams to fruition.

so tonight i decided to do three things. they are very simple but will completely change my life.

1. dream on purpose every day
2. write down my dreams 
3. commit to being disciplined to bring them to life

what does that look like exactly? to be a best selling author i have to write. everyday. without fail. i've started by committing to blog everyday but soon i need to make the jump to writing on my novel everyday. i've always considered that to be an overwhelming task and let the fear of it not being great keep me from starting. that's crazy because there are TONS of not so great books out there that found great success. i'd venture to say the twilight series might qualify! but look how popular and successful it was! books, movies, conventions. it's crazy.

the wife and mother thing is far more difficult as i can't force that to happen. but i'm going to continue to prepare myself by serving those in my life now and living my life to the fullest. they always say love happens when you least expect it. i find that odd because if you want it you should expect it. but whatever. i put it out there that my desire is marriage and motherhood. i believe that dream will come true. i'm hoping sooner rather than later. but until it happens, i'll keep dreaming.