What an adventure my life always turns out to be. Nothing rarely happens in the simplest path. Nope. Things in my life like to take the road less traveled. Or the road most convoluted. Or the road most difficult. Either way, it's usually not at all what I expected or how I planned. That's just the way it is.
So I didn't expect my trip home to be any different. And in the tradition of grand exquisiteness life didn't disappoint. I spent an evening in a hotel in Oklahoma city after a delayed flight out of Seattle kept me from making my connecting in Denver. No open seats on the next flight out of Denver meant a trip to Oklahoma overnight before heading to Kansas city in the morning. It was a long travel day but I finally made it and everything worked out. I have a few "issues" that have sprung up but over all life is good. Looking forward to having a great time with my family. And I can't wait to see my babies. My nieces and nephew are my whole world.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
so much good things for you
when you want friends you have to show yourself friendly. when you work the land you can enjoy the fruit of it. when you learn to fish you can fish for eternity. when you give, it will be given back to you. there is a law of recipricity that no matter what your faith, it can't be disputed. we reap what we sow.
i've been sowing some major seeds of faith, love, peace and service and i'm believing so much good things for my life and the lives of those i care about right now. i know there are great things in store and that's why i'm detoxing from the stuff that doesn't matter. the small things that get me distracted from doing what i'm supposed to do. the big things that suck my time and energy so i'm not doing the things i'm supposed to do. and the people that rob my time and emotional peace so i'm not doing the things i'm supposed to do. you see a pattern here? anything that keeps me from doing the things i'm supposed to be doing will get the boot.
the bottom line is i want the best life possible and when i line up with what god says i know i can have that. some people don't want you to succeed and some people just want you to get caught in their drama. either way, i don't want them in my life.
i've been sowing some major seeds of faith, love, peace and service and i'm believing so much good things for my life and the lives of those i care about right now. i know there are great things in store and that's why i'm detoxing from the stuff that doesn't matter. the small things that get me distracted from doing what i'm supposed to do. the big things that suck my time and energy so i'm not doing the things i'm supposed to do. and the people that rob my time and emotional peace so i'm not doing the things i'm supposed to do. you see a pattern here? anything that keeps me from doing the things i'm supposed to be doing will get the boot.
the bottom line is i want the best life possible and when i line up with what god says i know i can have that. some people don't want you to succeed and some people just want you to get caught in their drama. either way, i don't want them in my life.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
antsy: restless or impatient
my friend told me the wait is almost over and that's why we all feel so antsy. i like the word antsy. it makes me think of a person dancing around because he has ants in his pants. yep, that's how my brain works. antsy sounds like ants and ants in your pants make you dance. take that dr. seuss!
but the actual definition of antsy is slightly different. okay, it's way different. antsy means restless or impatient. well, fidgety kind of goes with my personal definition but that's not important right now. i'm gonna focus on restless and impatient because more times than not, that describes me. and i wonder if my wait times are extended for somethings because i grow restless. the thing is, in my restlessness and impatience, i don't actually give up. sometimes my attitude changes for the worse, but i still have the expectation of achievement. lately, i've worked overtime to keep my attitude in check. you HAVE to have a good attitude. i mean, a bad attitude can wreck your life. and it definitely doesn't influence god to move in your life.
so, i've been checking my attitude about things and i can say there has been change in some areas. but there are still some major things i'm waiting on, been waiting on and i'm trying hard to fight being restless and impatient. because i want the best and good things come to those who wait. at least that's what she said. (for the record, she also said the early bird gets the worm, so sometimes i don't know what to do!) there is a time to wait and a time to act. i just need to check in to see which is which and behave accordingly. but no matter what, my assault on the antsies will continue!
but the actual definition of antsy is slightly different. okay, it's way different. antsy means restless or impatient. well, fidgety kind of goes with my personal definition but that's not important right now. i'm gonna focus on restless and impatient because more times than not, that describes me. and i wonder if my wait times are extended for somethings because i grow restless. the thing is, in my restlessness and impatience, i don't actually give up. sometimes my attitude changes for the worse, but i still have the expectation of achievement. lately, i've worked overtime to keep my attitude in check. you HAVE to have a good attitude. i mean, a bad attitude can wreck your life. and it definitely doesn't influence god to move in your life.
so, i've been checking my attitude about things and i can say there has been change in some areas. but there are still some major things i'm waiting on, been waiting on and i'm trying hard to fight being restless and impatient. because i want the best and good things come to those who wait. at least that's what she said. (for the record, she also said the early bird gets the worm, so sometimes i don't know what to do!) there is a time to wait and a time to act. i just need to check in to see which is which and behave accordingly. but no matter what, my assault on the antsies will continue!
Monday, June 27, 2011
i am not afraid
huge sigh. what a wild last few days! but i'm pressing forward with life - getting closer to my goals and making my dreams come true. i'm also letting go of things that are weighing me down. sometimes you just have to realize when stuff in life isn't worth your energy. life is too short to allow stuff to bother you. they say don't sweat the small stuff. i'm learning to believe and live that.
as i prepare to head home to be with my family, i'm painfully aware of just how much life is worth. and just how quickly things can change. nothing is guaranteed. so i've decided to succeed and accomplish my goals, i have to stop being afraid. the truth is i didn't even know i was afraid. i was afraid of what people would think of me. i was afraid of how i would be perceived. i was afraid that maybe i wasn't quite qualified. i was afraid i wouldn't measure up. i was afraid things wouldn't change. that is a lot of fear! and when it comes down to it, fear is a trick of the enemy and the enemy is defeated. so with that, i am not afraid to go get it - whatever that is! i'm going to walk in my purpose and live out my destiny just as planned. and if you're not going to walk beside me and journey through life with me, you are dismissed.
as i prepare to head home to be with my family, i'm painfully aware of just how much life is worth. and just how quickly things can change. nothing is guaranteed. so i've decided to succeed and accomplish my goals, i have to stop being afraid. the truth is i didn't even know i was afraid. i was afraid of what people would think of me. i was afraid of how i would be perceived. i was afraid that maybe i wasn't quite qualified. i was afraid i wouldn't measure up. i was afraid things wouldn't change. that is a lot of fear! and when it comes down to it, fear is a trick of the enemy and the enemy is defeated. so with that, i am not afraid to go get it - whatever that is! i'm going to walk in my purpose and live out my destiny just as planned. and if you're not going to walk beside me and journey through life with me, you are dismissed.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
who knows
there are a lot of things in life that can change your perspective on things. the loss of loved ones, the birth of new loved ones, career changes, relationships and friendships all shape who we are. lately, a string of events has changed my perspective on life. i don't consider that a bad thing. it is necessary to re-evaluate your life on a regular basis and make adjustments so you stay on track to achieve your goals.
for me, it is also necessary to make sure i'm surrounding myself with people who mean the best for me and want to see me succeed as much as i want to see them succeed. lately i've wondered if some of the people in my life want to be there. when you make up stuff to initiate conflict i have to wonder. i don't do drama. i know issues come up but pettiness and silliness are not my cup of tea. say what you mean. mean what you say. be quick to listen and slow to anger. and be ready to reconcile. you aren't always right. no one is always right. when you make a mistake, as i do all the time, admit it. be willing to apologize and mean it when you're wrong.
i just expect much more out of my relationships than some people seem willing to give. in light of that knowledge who knows what the future holds. either way, i will always be true to me and keep it 100 with everyone.
for me, it is also necessary to make sure i'm surrounding myself with people who mean the best for me and want to see me succeed as much as i want to see them succeed. lately i've wondered if some of the people in my life want to be there. when you make up stuff to initiate conflict i have to wonder. i don't do drama. i know issues come up but pettiness and silliness are not my cup of tea. say what you mean. mean what you say. be quick to listen and slow to anger. and be ready to reconcile. you aren't always right. no one is always right. when you make a mistake, as i do all the time, admit it. be willing to apologize and mean it when you're wrong.
i just expect much more out of my relationships than some people seem willing to give. in light of that knowledge who knows what the future holds. either way, i will always be true to me and keep it 100 with everyone.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
playing hooky
i was supposed to attend a leadership summit today. hear from some people who are experts in leadership and how to be an effective leader. but i went bowling last night and stayed out way past my bedtime and then i came home and made some homemade soup for a friend who i infected with my cooties. i was up until 4 am and that pretty much guaranteed i would not be making it to the summit.
sometimes it's necessary to play hooky from things and rest. it's not that i do too much on a regular basis but occasionally i cross the line between being active and being over committed. and then there is just the need to rest every once in a while. i was sick last weekend and did far more than a sick person should. so today when i woke at 10 (two hours after the start of the summit) i decided i'd be perfectly okay lounging around the house and watching netflix. and you know what? i was right!
eventually i'll head out to my garden and do a little weeding and harvesting but for now, i'm just going to kick my heels up, wrap myself in a warm blanket, sip a hot tottie and watch scifi on netflix!
sometimes it's necessary to play hooky from things and rest. it's not that i do too much on a regular basis but occasionally i cross the line between being active and being over committed. and then there is just the need to rest every once in a while. i was sick last weekend and did far more than a sick person should. so today when i woke at 10 (two hours after the start of the summit) i decided i'd be perfectly okay lounging around the house and watching netflix. and you know what? i was right!
eventually i'll head out to my garden and do a little weeding and harvesting but for now, i'm just going to kick my heels up, wrap myself in a warm blanket, sip a hot tottie and watch scifi on netflix!
Friday, June 24, 2011
closer
i'm so glad that after this week i'm closer to seeing my family. i will be heading to kc wednesday afternoon. can't wait. haven't seen my family since october and i can't believe how much i miss them. i was planning to see them in september and i hope i still can but it was definitely nice to book my flight to go home. no where i'd rather be right now.
and i'm also happy that my friend will be visiting end of next month. of course until the ticket is purchased i don't know for sure but it's the plan. being so far away from the people i love and care about just makes me want to be closer. but we're stuck where we are. so trips make all the difference.
and i'm also happy that my friend will be visiting end of next month. of course until the ticket is purchased i don't know for sure but it's the plan. being so far away from the people i love and care about just makes me want to be closer. but we're stuck where we are. so trips make all the difference.
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