i knew i loved you before i met you

a lot of people are in love with the idea of being in love. i get it. love is like magical fairy dust that makes everything brighter, lovelier, more enjoyable. but i know that love can also make you miserable and angry. why? because when you love someone you love their good and their bad. or, at least you love their good while accepting their bad. the trade-off is supposed to be worth it in the end.

i won't argue with that. the right person can add so much to your life in positive ways that you can get through the hard times without walking away. i can only speak for myself but i have come to realize that i too am in love with an idea of the person i want. this man already has the key to my heart and only needs to materialize to unlock it. who is he?

i don't actually know who he is. i mean, i thought i did but you know, we can be wrong. but i'm waiting, patiently as i can, for the man that gets me. who understands that i'm not like other women. i like to be sexy but not really into the girlie thing. i enjoy sports and prefer action and scifi and cosplay for comic cons and read comic books and love to play video games. i volunteer all the time because giving back to my community is one of the most important things to me. i can grow my own food or catch it and cook it and keep a house. i read and write and dance and paint and live for time outdoors. i'm far more sensitive than people realize and my feelings do get hurt even if i don't show it.

i'm strong but want to be taken care of. i plan religiously but can enjoy being in the moment with the person that has my heart. i love to laugh and enjoy everything about life. i can appreciate the simple things and spending quality time together goes much farther than showering me with gifts. i'm fiercely loyal and even when i get angry i don't stay that way long. i'm quick to forgive and believe that walking in compassion and love is the best way for me to reflect my faith and belief in Christ. i know a lot but realize i don't have all the answers. i'm a natural cheerleader and no one will believe in you more than me. but most important, i want a love that lasts forever -- through good and bad, sickness and health, ups and downs, rich or poor. i have no desire to walk away and need that same commitment.