have you ever experienced something in life and thought, i never want to experience that again? lesson learned? i have had a few of those experiences in the last few years. actually, the last five years of my life have been one huge learning experience. some of my faith tenants have been tried. some of my beliefs have been stretched. some of my relationships have been challenged. and some of my values have changed. i have learned much in the last five years. which, is how it should be honestly. we shouldn't be the same person year in and year out. there should be some kind of growth. thankfully, i have a merciful teacher!
life isn't always merciful. it can be hard and harsh and unrelenting. i think i've experienced that as much as i've experienced the joys and triumphs and happy endings. but i have to believe that all of my life experiences have made me better. and let's face it, i haven't always made the right choice or done the right thing. i haven't always said the most affirming words or listened when i should. i'm flawed. i'm so flawed. and in my frailty i'm in awe that god sees the real me and loves me all the same. i can't help but ask who am i that you are mindful of me? a lowly woman! but i've learned to accept god's love rather than question it. in fact, i'm learning to accept his plan without questioning it.
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