wild card

my friend christina used to always talk about having a fasion wild card when putting together your outfit. she said you needed something to completely pop that set your outfit off but totally showcased your personality. fashion isn't my thing but i can appreciate tried and true fashion advice from a true fashionista. but i've come to learn that i myself am a wild card. and i LOVE it!

when people see me on first glance they aren't sure what to think. i'm short and brown and natural and unapologetically joyful. i sound a bit like a white girl but i grew up in a straight hood family. i'm a journalist by trade but i embrace science, technology, politics and history. there are few subjects i'm not versed in because i read constantly. i'm a tomboy to the core but i don't ever leave my house without make up on. i'd rather wear jeans and chucks but i love me some fly bags! i cheered from middle school to college and was still remembered by my peers as a nerd at my high school reunion. i find it hard to resist a great action/sci-fi/fantasy movie but i'm at every broadway show or ballet performance i can afford. i am a wild card. and people don't know what to think when they meet me.

i used to be self conscious about my interests because a girl like me wasn't supposed to be into the kind of things i like. to this day, i get weird looks from guys when i talk about playing video games and building robots while they're telling me how pretty i am. look, i know i'm beautiful. god told me i was beautifully and wonderfully made. but only a fool thinks a woman is one dimensional! i can cook your meals and birth your babies and entertain your boss and coworkers and host your family and keep your mind blown in the bedroom and be a beast on my job and serve my community and maintain authentic relationships with my friends and have your back and still be 100% true to who god made me. that is WHO i am.

so, yes i like being a wild card. i like people trying to size me up only to learn they think way too small to even begin to comprehend the awesomeness that god poured into me. i didn't always know it but now that i do, i own it and you'll see it when you encounter me. but don't worry, i have also learned to remain humble because my upbringing has taught me humility. i'm not going to make you feel less than, just like i'm not going to let you dim my shine. don't like it? that's okay. you have it in you to be great as well. embrace it and see what doors open up for you. we are all created to be the leading ladies in the story of our life. if you aren't playing that role, you need a new director!