the shape of things to come

i'm not one to read horoscopes. my family is really heavy into zodiac signs. it makes me laugh because what can the stars tell me about me? anyway, i have been feeling some kind of way this weekend about somethings. i know i'm being cryptic but it's mostly because i don't want to spend too much time thinking about it now because i don't want it to invade my dreams tonight. i have a big day tomorrow and i just want to start fully rested and excited. so, back to this zodiac business.

some of my family and friends on twitter post their daily horoscopes and i read them occasionally because they offer great story ideas! yes, that's right. they are rife with fiction inspiration. i had a creative writing class were we had to read them every day and write a short story based on the life prediction. it was quite fun and some of my stories were epic. some sucked. such is the life of a writer. anyway, i read my cousin's scope and decided i'd click the link for the scorpio scope. my birthday is 11/11 so that makes me a scorpio. i'm supposed to be passionate and emotional and intense. queue smoldering eyes. hehehe.

but my scope said to chill. i was getting ready to jump to a conclusion about something without having the facts and it wouldn't end well if i did. the funny thing about this scope is that it's true. oddly enough it was confirmation for something i was praying about. more cryptic speak here.

i have a tendency to let my imagination run away with me. sometimes i'm right. sometimes i'm not. the point it that i have to stop acting on things without getting facts. there have been times i've said things that i later wanted to retract because i was so far from the truth it was ridiculous. but the thing about words, once they are spoken, they can't be taken back. you can't suddenly unsay it. this time, i'm going to just wait. and do nothing. as the scripture i got told me to do. i have a problem doing nothing. i feel useless when i do nothing. but sometimes doing nothing is exactly the right thing to do.

i have no idea what lies ahead. the shape of things to come is more than a mystery to me. but i want to make sure that whatever lies ahead, i'm ready and in position. life is this very interesting journey that doesn't always play fair or take the quickest or easiest road. sometimes it chooses the detours. i wish it would choose better when my heart was at stake. but it is what it is. and i'll have to take each day as it comes. but i will hold my peace in this situation. i'll wait. and see what happens. makes me feel helpless but it's better than messing up something by assuming the wrong thing!