finish the race

i'm not a procrastinator so much as a person who gets distracted easily. i have adhd as an adult and sometimes i find it hard to focus. i will start something and then get distracted and move on to something else. this doesn't keep me from finishing most things but there are some really big things i have yet to finish (even after a decade *ducks head in shame*) and the reality of that is making me sad. so much should have been accomplished that has gone unfinished.

in college i discovered the more scheduled i was the more focused i was. my gpa was its highest when i was involved heavily in organizations, working, student athlete and social with my friends. being that scheduled required a lot of discipline to meet all of my responsibilities. surprisingly, every thing got done and it was quality work. as an adult, i'm less scheduled. in fact, i'd venture to say i have way too much free time.

as i've been thinking of what changes i need to make in my life while working to achieve my professional and personal goals, i've come to the conclusion that i need to do more stuff. of course this isn't "busy" stuff as no one wants to fill their schedule with mindless crap. but there are some organizations that i need to participate in. there are some more volunteer opportunities that i need to take advantage of. and there are some more people that i need to interact with more regularly.

i want to FINISH a book this year because i've had dreams of me doing a book tour. i can't believe that i'm the reason i haven't published anything. it's no one else's fault. i'm the one who refuses to finish the race. so i'm getting it together because i want to be a full time writer. i want the flexibility of it, the unlimited creativity of it, the fulfillment of it and i want to enjoy the success of it. i can't let my shortcomings and fears keep me from being a published author. it just doesn't make sense. and it's not fair to my future readers or me. so, you heard it here first. it's time for me to finish the race!