isn't it ironic

i've noticed recently that my life is extremely ironic. irony is defined as coincidental and unexpected. yep, that sums things up nicely.

for instance, i'm headed to atlanta next week for easter. my friend and love of my life (i'm working on it!) lives about 90 minutes away. we've talked in the not so distant past about me coming to visit and i really want to see him. but we've not communicated regularly the last month. he checks in but he always talks about how busy he is. he moved 3 months ago, bought a house and is trying to get settled in. i don't know what is keeping him so busy but it definitely hurts my feelings a little - and some days more than a little - that he doesn't feel i'm worthy of more frequent phone calls, even if it's just for a short time. sigh. anyway, i would love to see him but i'm not going to visit him and as of right now, i'm not even sure i should tell him i'm going to be in his neighborhood. mostly because i'd be devastated if i told him that i wanted to see him and he was too busy to see me. the whole trip came about because i'm in desperate need of a break from seattle. my bestie was heading to atl for easter to visit our friend and suggested i tag along. at first i was against it because if i'm going to make a trip down there i would definitely want it to be to visit him. but since we've hardly talked in the last few weeks i'm kind of laughing (KIND OF) at the irony of me traveling to his neck of the woods and not seeing him. i've never even been to atl and when he moved the only reason i would have conceived of going was to see him! and i miss him so much. irony!

on my job, i've been pushing for us to explore the glorious world of social media because i love social media, i love communications technology and i love interactive marketing. they are areas that i excel in and it makes sense that my company would capitalize on my knowledge. plus it makes sense for a communications company to communicate! but they are deadest against it. so i started looking for new opportunities in that area. the irony is that i have to show proof of success in that area in order to secure a new job in that field. sigh. thankfully i have opportunities to do freelance work in this area, which i'm doing now, but at the end of the day it's no job without experience and current job won't let me get the experience. irony.

i keep shaking my head because i can't believe how ironic things are right now. but i'm moving forward with the belief that things will get better. if i continue to focus on what's important and channel my energy in the right direction, i know i'll see the changes i've been praying and waiting for. i'm steady on the grind because i need change like i need air to breathe. and no amount of irony is going to slow me down. or maybe that's another ironic event - i'm feeling the makings of transition and i have no idea what form it will take, but i'm moving forward anyway. don't know for sure. but isn't it ironic?