today is another day of me having a hard time dealing with his absence. not every day is like this which i'm grateful for because i couldn't feel like this everyday. but i hate how emotionally draining it is to get over someone. i read an article that said you need 3 months for every year you were with someone to get over the loss of the relationship. that sounds a little pollyanna to me. but to each his own.
i had a major sinus migraine today that had me sick to my head and stomach. so i was laid up in bed with all this time to think about my life. of course i've been doing that a lot anyway. practically nonstop! trying to figure out how to get things back on track. but today i thought about how nice it would be to have someone to baby me when i was sick. and that got me to thinking about him. it's a very vicious cycle that i'm trying hard to break. i don't want my story to read "she couldn't move on" so every day i try. i'm such a work in progress in so many ways.
but i'm believing that putting out all this positive energy welcoming real love into my life will have results. i'm cool with the woman who are all content being single. do your thing. i've been single for more than a decade because i was interested in discovering who i was and what i wanted out of life. now i'm ready for love. nothing will change that. so hello universe. are you listening?
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