in the zone

i spent my weekend working on a project for a friend's business that i hope will create a better community experience for his fans. but i got so much out of the project. i'm a creative person and lately i haven't been letting my creativity juices flowing at their full capacity. who am i kidding. i don't think they've been flowing at all! so this was an opportunity for me to remind myself how talented i am and how much i have to offer.

i worked all weekend and i'm exhausted. but i'm happy. in fact, a friend yesterday told me that i looked different. happier. i thought about it for a while. tried to go over all the things that could be contributing to my aura of happiness. there is the acceptance that i can't change things that are out of my control so i need to do my best until things change. there is the improved stomach condition and less pain when i eat. there is the realization that some people in my life are reaching the end of their season and there is the admitting that i was giving people and things too much control over my happiness. as the bible says, the world didn't give my joy to me and the world can't take it away. i had to reclaim my power over my happiness and my joy.

i'm glad that the inner changes are showing on the outside. i'm glad God has caused my countenance to change. i am a happy person and i don't like feeling miserable. i have too much to be thankful for. sometimes you just have to be reminded of how much God has blessed you, how much He loves you and how much He has gifted you to succeed.

there are some things i don't have the power to change. and there are some things that require an act to get in line. i've been working on getting in line because i want things to work.