Tuesday, April 24, 2012

an empty cup can be refilled

i know everyone has heard that phrase don't cry over spilt milk. of course it's pointless as the damage is done and all you can really do is clean up and move on right? but for some reason, we mourn the milk that was lost. maybe somebody back in the day was enjoying an awesome snack of oreos and milk and knocked over their glass of milk and pitched a fit. actually, in that case i totally understand crying over spilt milk! i mean really, oreos and milk were meant to be forever!

but the truth is once the milk is spilt and your glass is now empty, it's ready to be refilled. right? an empty cup can handle a refill. sometimes the refill is more of the same. it was so good the first time we want seconds. sometimes the refill is a chance to try something new. maybe you had milk the first time and you want orange juice the second time. either way, an empty cup can be filled!

i've made no secret of striving to be a transparent woman. i try not to hide my flaws because they are a part of me - mind, body and soul. i love who i am. even when i'm having a bad day or a diva moment or sad out of my mind, i still love the cumulative details of my life. most days i think life is pretty close to perfect. sure some things are missing but i don't feel empty in the least. i would like to think that is because i'm a believer in knowing who god says i am and not who this crazy weird of backwards thinking people think i am. i know my worth because it's determined by the one who created me. he knows who i am, what i'm capable of and what i can be.

that knowledge alone makes me rejoice at the opportunity to have my cup refilled. when i've emptied out, i look forward to knowing what god wants to pour in me. maybe it's just me, but isn't it awesome when you remember he wants our cups to run over to overflowing? yep, an empty cup can be refilled!

Friday, April 20, 2012

preparing for the party

this weekend i am sharing my space, creativity and general love of life with some amazing women. i've invited them to my home to fellowship with each other and do a clever craft project i found on pinterest. we're making magnetic makeup or jewelry boards! i'm very excited to see what the ladies come up with. i'm a creative person and believe we all have creativity floating around inside. how can we not when we were created by the most thoughtful, purposeful and imaginative God? he speared nothing when creating and that same energy and power lives in us!

but having a party means lots of preparation and so i've been busy choosing menus, purchasing supplies and food and beverages. i've cleaned and rearranged and even gotten rid of a few things to get my space ready to welcome these ladies. i even hung up some new art work! art inspires creativity and i want the ladies to be in full communion with their creative energy.

despite all the preparations, i'm giddy with excitement. i can't wait to see all of the ladies tomorrow.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

New kid on the block

while having prayer with my sisters tonight we talked about being the new kid on the block how awkward that can be. having relocated to both coast in my adult life i know a thing or two about being the new kid. it definitely sucks. but to my surprise my sisters thought i was well suited for it because i have no problem making friends. as one joked, "you just walk up to people and say hi i'm soandso, do you want to be my friend?"

that made me laugh. it's not quite that simple. lol. but honestly making friends is never hard for me. i'm not super charasmatic or anything but over the last few years i've discovered that more often than not, people are drawn to me. i've come to learn that i have high vibrations and radiance. it's not always but when i'm doing the things necessary to care for myself - alone time, meditation, pampering, reading, connecting with nature, learning, etc. - i give off something that draws people to me.

i'm not a perfect woman, sometimes i'm moody and emotional and i've been known to be rude on occassion, but it is my sincere desire to be the hands, feet and heart of god extended in this earth. i want to touch people with his love. i want to demonstrate his compassion and grace and mercy. those things aren't easy. they were completely revolutionary when jesus taught them. love your enemies? care for the poor and windows and aliens? talk to the strangers and the dirty and broken? you know what that means? you have to understand what it's like to be the new kid on the block. you have to understand what it's like to be marginalized by society. you have to understand what it's like to be on the outside looking in.

people are quick to tell you things happen for a reason. yes they do. they happen because we speak them into existence or someone else spoke them into existense. there is no such thing has happenstance. it's fine if you disagree. we won't fall out over it. but it is 100% true that life and death are in the power of the tongue and what we speak, we give life to. i told god i want to represent him and by golly he continues to provide opportunities for me to touch his people. most of the time, i don't have to go out of my way to do it. they come to me. they collide with me.

i think i'm making a new mantra. everyday i want to collide with god's abundant life, blessings, healing and love and i want to share out of the overflow. that's what self care is all about. it's filling up your cup so when it starts overflowing you are able to give out of the abundance. i want to live in that space everyday. i want to collide with that kind of godness!

Monday, April 2, 2012

keep and sweep

i was purusing my twitter timeline the other day when i saw a tweet from one of my tweeps that talked about tryng to do self forgiveness for past mistakes. i felt sad for her. we all make mistakes. i mean, boy we can really make a mess of things when we are busy being "grown" and doing what we want to do. the great thing is most of us grow up and when we do, we can look back on our past mistakes and see them as lessons learned.

but what happens when you don't view your past mistakes as lessons? are you doomed to continue to repeat them? if you constantly beat yourself up for the mistakes of the past, are you able to move forward? we know the answer to both of these questions.

self forgivness is just as important as getting the forgiveness of god and those you hurt. we have to release ourselves of the prisons we put ourselves in because god never meant for us to be locked up in the first place. he desires that we live free and forgiveness is key to that freedom.

i wish i could have had a conversation with the lady who created that post - the woman that found it hard to forgive herself for past mistakes. the woman who continued to through away the key to her emotional and mental freedom because she believed the lies about her past and not the truth. she needs to have a keep and sweep moment. a time to reflect on who she is and who she wants to be. she needs a time let god reveal her truth so her reflection matches his and not the one muddied by the lies the world tells. she needs to keep the truths about herself and about her past and about her future. and she needs to sweep awawy everything else.

do you need to have a keep and sweep? i think we all do from time to time. take a few minutes to think about it. you know the answer. go ahead and clear your schedule. prepare to cry and laugh and maybe even dance. have a pen and notebo to write down your truths and the things you need to keep. and grab a broom so you can physically sweep all the crap, and garbage and muck that has dirtied up your temple. go ahead and get free!